LocTober 2021 - Day 34 - W4D7 - Random Musings of Domina Shelle's slave v

Arousal Meter – 3/10

i found this day to be filled with much pleasure and thoughts of Domina Shelle. Meanwhile, thoughts of arousal or cumming have avoided my mind. It seems silly for the meter to be so low on my official last day of LocTober (not chastity); but, i think i might be over rating my arousal level as it is 🤷‍♀️

Best Thing That Happened

Sadly, i have reached the end of LocTober. These past five weeks in chastity for Domina Shelle have been so amazingly wonderful. i have always been a girl obsessed with surrendering control of my sex indefinitely to another person and there is no better person that Domina Shelle. Previously, i always struggled with the temptation to disobey and cum around the 2-3 week mark which led to the eventual “accident’ where i would edge just a bit too far and cum. i am so overjoyed that i successfully did not cum during the whole five weeks and hopefully for many more *giggles*

i am filled with so much peace and happiness in the knowledge that i have gained over this time that my sex is truly no longer mine; it belongs to Domina Shelle. Domina Shelle is my keyholder and i simply will not cum unless She commands it. If you have been reading these journals throughout the month, you know how surprisingly easy i found Loctober to be. i fully expected it to be quite the struggle after the 2 week mark especially with the extra teasing focus from Domina Shelle. There was one day of weakness last week that felt like my old self which i had the strength to withstand with the help of Princess Andrea and Domina Shelle. Otherwise, i find myself feeling like a brand new woman.

i have never really been a woman that interested in cumming; sudden impulses aside. i used to be a woman who desired to be held on the edge of bliss for as long as possible. Now i find myself not even caring about reaching the edge. So much so, that i am not even consciously rubbing slowly when Domina instructs me to touch Her sex. It is a much more automatic subconscious response. It honestly takes more conscious effort to speed up and attempt to edge when She instructs. On top of all of this is the fact that Domina Shelle has made it so pleasurable to touch myself while listening to Her voice that i have no need to cum. Mindlessly rubbing slowly under Domina’s instruction is vastly more pleasure than any orgasm has granted.

Thank You Domina Shelle for such an amazing LocTober experience. You really do know how to make my dreams come true. i hope that i am able to play at least a small part in making Your dreams into reality as well. i increasingly grow more fond of You with each passing moment and am eager to be Your forever! 🥰❤️

Recordings

Thoughts of the Day

Weekly

What is important is my identity as Princess’s slave. This gives my life meaning, direction and purpose. my happiness is found in making You happy with my servitude to help care for Your needs and well being to make Your life easier and happy. my time being chaste is making me better and more focused for You.

Daily

i will always belong to Princess Shelle. i live my life to please Her in all ways. She takes care of me and i will always serve Her. i dedicate myself to work hard for Her to deepen and strengthen my loyalty and devotion.